Triple berry smoothie with protein powder
coffee and water
BBQ skinless chicken breast, cabbage
Small turkey wrap (turkey, cheese, banana peppers)
Awesome August - Workout #17: Squats, crunches, plank
I did not leave the house today. I was so afraid I'd end up in the store buying junk food that I decided to stay in.
What I need to do is stay in the present. When I dwell about the past or start thinking about the future, it triggers the thoughts and emotions that I want to sedate with sugar and other junk. I am so surprised by these anxious thoughts. After all, I am the one who decided to end the relationship. I finally had to admit that it was toxic and I could no longer stay in that space. At first I was so relieved, now I am experiencing this. I don't even know what to call it. Grief, maybe?
I have plans to meet a friend for lunch tomorrow. I'm glad it's someone who understand the journey I am on right now. I've already warned her that I want to talk.
5 months ago