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Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Don't it make my brown eyes blue

Where, oh, where to begin?

I've been experiencing painful urination for about two weeks now. I thought it was kidney stones; others were saying UTI. Well, I went to the doctor yesterday. I'm having bladder spasms. I'm not emptying my bladder completely. I have this constant urge to go to the bathroom.

So, the doctor gives me this medication (UTA tablets) that have turned my urine this radioactive green. I am sooooo miserable.

I cancel my training session today and Kimberly rips into me. If you don't feel like working out, Sheila, just tell me! (I cancelled last Monday because I wasn't feeling well.) She goes on and on about consistency, blah, blah, blah...I tuned out. I was pissed. I'm not lying! I don't feel well! I know I'm feeling very vulnerable and sensitive and down right now so I tried not to react and take out my frustrations on her. I listened and said see you on Monday. I know she's just doing her job.

It looks like I'm not going to be able to participate in my first fitness event. As much as I was anxious about it, I am now pretty bummed about it. I'm supposed to do the Polar Bear 5K on Saturday. Heck, I have to go to the bathroom every 15 minutes. This medication is making me groggy.

Have I whined enough yet? Lol!

What else? My relationship is on the rocks. At first I was okay with it. Now, the reality of being separated is sinking in. It's been three weeks.

The bright side in all this is that I know stress is one of my triggers. So far, I haven't resorting to eating away my emotions. I have been focusing on prayer, meditation, and working out when I can.

Today I was thinking of a song we used to sing in church. I don't remember all the words but I do remember the line - these trials come to make me strong.

I am strong! I will get through this. I am not going to let a few little trivial obstacles knock me off my path.

-Who cares if Kimberly thought I was lying?
-There will be plenty of 5Ks to walk!
-If my relationship is over, so be it.

Okay, my pity party is over.

1 comment:

  1. Sheila, I am sorry to hear you aren't feeling well and I hope you feel better soon. I am proud of you for taking care of yourself and canceling your appointment. Kudos to you for feeling your emotions and not eating them. The important thing is that you give yourself time to get better. I will keep you in my prayers. There are lots of other 5k's and you will do one soon. Hang in there and continue to take care of yourself. xoxo